46.

I don't even know where to start. Well usually most people like to start on the low point and move higher so let's talk about what a fail the beginning of my summer was health wise:
1. lice: usually transmitted by the little dirt monkeys of the world (if you are not familiar with my vernacular... dirt monkeys=children in elementary school) yet as a 17 year old i got it for the first, and hopefully last time... knock on wood, obviously... So that happened to me a while ago. As of now I'm officially lice-free and ecstatic. While infected i had to wrap my head in mayonnaise, among other disgusting treatments. So, lesson of the day... you don't want lice.

2. black eye: while playing the innocent of field hockey... i got smashed in the face (while still lice infected) which is why i was in the hospital. I had to get a catscan and everything to make sure nothing was broken. Here's the progression of my eye:
day 1:

day 2:

day 3:

day 4:

day 5:

and then it got a lot better, so i stopped taking pictures of it. salt water does wonders in conjunction with time.

and since that's the bad... and only the bad, I'm going to post the two separately. mainly to talk about the HARRY POTTER THEME PARK.

trying desperately to organize my thoughts,
valerie. xoxo.

45.

Sorry i haven't posted in awhile, but it seems as through my family is a fraying sweater, and everything is falling apart. Two trips to the ER over the last two days, one nasty case of head lice, and no income has proven to be a catalyst to my families apparent demise. My mom's going now to the ER, so more later. and i have work... so thats fun.

44.

SO, i realize that my self-proclaimed anti-drug video was completely random and unprecedented, but as a self-proclaimed straight-edge, i hate to see youth in shambles, as it is in these videos. No one deserves to be an addict.

I'll update about my life later, i have to work.


Valerie.

public service announcement.

42.

"What will I do if there's someone there with you
Maybe someone you've always known
How do I know I can come and give to you
Love with no warning and find you alone"
Feist and Ben Gibbard give me hope.

Oh, BTW, not my photography, sorry about that, i just kind of find it beautiful. My photography will again be on this blog because I'm getting a new camera :) A sony cyber-shot, I know it's epic.

So i've realized a few things in the last few hours.
A. that my blog lately has been more of a string of subconcious thoughts then a post about anything relavent to life.
and
B. i have nothing "relevant" to write about. I was searching through "blogs of note" because i want to write something that people want to read, not the senseless ramblings about a teenage girl.

I few things stuck out in my mind; the four things that seem to be most important in my summer schedule besides work and field hockey: movies, books, fashion, and music. and obviously some pop culture, and then i thought so is every other teenage girl, especially a so-called "eccentric" and "trendy" one like myself.

Trendy playlist of the week:
Train Song-Ben Gibbard & Feist
The Compromise-The Format
Creep-Radiohead
Not Your Lover-Blitzen Trapper
That's All-Absent Elk
The Police and the Private-Metric


P.S. there's an acoustic music fest on Friday at my school and me and my friend Vivian are preforming one of my favorite sonfs of all time: The Ocean by the Bravery. I'm SO psyched. I'll totally post about it on Friday night/ Saturday afternoon-- maybe not i have graduation parties up the ***.


Congrats all,
Valerie.

41.

To me, today, it's officially summer. i finished my hardest final today, my ap calc bc final, and it was a slap to the face, but i'd prefer not to talk about it.
So I said i'd discuss books i read over the summer and the first i've finished is perks of being a wallflower. I finished it on sunday at work, and later that night i felt infinite. You're probably thinking : "Wow, Valerie, you probably were looking for that feeling after you read about it"
The truth is, when i was driving fast with my best friend Nicola in the summer night air, hollering in blind excitement and listening to the radio, i felt like i could live like that forever. I felt the way teenagers should feel: free and ready for anything, which i've never felt. Always cautious and good, i never was ready for what the future held, but now i think i am.
I'm not saying I'm not looking forward to college, because that would be a lie. I'm just scared for what fate has in store, which is completely separate from hard work and dedication. Fate can suck, i just hope that's not the card i draw.

So, i could probably write a whole ton more for perks, but frankly right now i don't feel like it. Maybe later i will.

xoxo, Valerie.

40.

For the 40th post, let's play a little game shall we?

it's friday night at 12 am, so should i say sunday morning?

regardless what's wrong with this picture (not actually a picture) a more situation deal

all saturday sitting at a picnic bench outside a park, in thunderstorms collecting money. coming home to pissed rents and going out to dinner with them and my grandparents to a restaurant i don't care for. texting a guy i have restricted to the friend zone more than my boyfriend of one and a half years and two (three?) days, the same guy who i hung out with alone the night before cuddling on his couch and watching 300. Where's the bf, you ask. he ditched me twice in a row for his father and his friends, without inviting me. i spent both days watching reruns of gossip girl.

please let me be reborn into manhattan's elite, i do have pretty good karma.

oh, and the answer to the game: everything.