thirty seven.

watching law and order svu like its the best thing since sliced bread. it's raining. again. life in the norm, what can i say. My face is greasy all the time now.

Gonna go wash it, Valerie.

thirty six.

bitches and hoes. i just got back from work. let me just say as a disclaimer, that no matter how good having money is, working a job is WORSE. My jobs are the trifecta of my "happiness". toll booth torture mixed with a lil dirt monkey lovin' 4 nights a week. I have to say though, i'd love to write about the customers i get at my job from the cheap decal jobs on their cars to the cheap tattoo jobs on their skin. To the bitchy ghetto cats. Their characters i suppose. If they're worthy of USA they're worthy of my time. Because i watch USA like a bad habit. My moms giving Melissa( my moms friend) and I a kickboxing class. I'm saying a hell yeah! Hmmm in other news... drivers ed has been absolutely delectable. Besides the early wake-up, movies like "Red Asphalt V" really get me going. They fly my kite high in the sky. I finished Winesburg, Ohio today at work. I guess that was my goal for today, and i achieved. I succeeded and reached my goal. I'm going to start volunteering at the V.A. pretty soon with Ash-Attack. That makes me happy about life. Old people >.< Old war veteran people. I should be jumping for joy, shouldn't I? I don't really have that urge. Besides, my mom will be making me jump (idk if it's for joy) in about a half hour. I'm about to get changed into the normal everyday garb: sport bra, tank, shorts. Yum. I know this may gross you out, but i have a confession to make. I don't shave as much any more. For the record I'm usually a woolly mammoth, and i feel pretty gosh darn liberated.
Tonight i'll either be rockin' it at Ben's humble abode or spicing my life up at the St. Augustine's Fair.
You can't expect too much of me, ya know?

Later Haters, Valerie.

P.S. Visit me at work tomorrow anyone?

35.

i've approached a moment of clarity. I realize that over the last few days i've been teleporting from bitchy to silent to depressed in about a millesecond each and it kind of sucks to be around me. to the people that have dealt with it: thank you. It really isn't my emotional standing of choice. After i got through the whole vacation fiasco, that would really spare me so i'm not going to talk about it- i reached a moment of clarity, in which i felt inspired to do something productive. Productivity i've lacked in the last week by fueling my inevitable boredom with movies and mindless television in conjunction with stalking on facebook. Today, though i'm going to grasp this new found motivation in both hands and do something- i know that's amazing. i want to get a haircut, clean out my room, write a novel, climb a mountain, go the mall, repair my room, reinvent myself TODAY. i want to get something done, to show the world, that NO i am not feeling sorry for myself today, and it doesn't matter than my sucky summer is holding me down. this free time will not be wasted. i will change myself and make self-sufficient memories. Independent and self serving.

Mark my words, Valerie.

yeah i know.

It's been awhile. I'm just so bored i can't bring myself to do anything productive. I have packed and I've written Tara two letters, but other than that i've been sitting in my house and watching law & order svu. What a crime drama. i'm eating a grapefruit. Yummy boosted metabolism :D Today i'm going to driver's ed at 10 am to drive like a maniac, maniac. and then later on i'm going to the india house for lunch then work at 4:30-7:30. and then at 7:30 i have kickboxing, which i'm probably going to get ditched for, like i usually am. I'm sick and tired of being treated like this expendable reasource. When ever you're bored or have no one else, that's the time you call valerie. You can't make lunch the first 2 times, you can't excersize with her, you can't driver her to the bank. Even strangers are doing it, aka the Apple Store. Don't get me wrong, i effing love them. BUT get me a new iPod already.
So since my presence is expendable, and my friendship is as well, so is my creativity. Maybe I'll get a burst of energy when i leave for vacation on friday. The salt water will do good for me. I swear, i won't be as much of a pity party later on.

Hating summer, Valerie.