public service announcement.

42.

"What will I do if there's someone there with you
Maybe someone you've always known
How do I know I can come and give to you
Love with no warning and find you alone"
Feist and Ben Gibbard give me hope.

Oh, BTW, not my photography, sorry about that, i just kind of find it beautiful. My photography will again be on this blog because I'm getting a new camera :) A sony cyber-shot, I know it's epic.

So i've realized a few things in the last few hours.
A. that my blog lately has been more of a string of subconcious thoughts then a post about anything relavent to life.
and
B. i have nothing "relevant" to write about. I was searching through "blogs of note" because i want to write something that people want to read, not the senseless ramblings about a teenage girl.

I few things stuck out in my mind; the four things that seem to be most important in my summer schedule besides work and field hockey: movies, books, fashion, and music. and obviously some pop culture, and then i thought so is every other teenage girl, especially a so-called "eccentric" and "trendy" one like myself.

Trendy playlist of the week:
Train Song-Ben Gibbard & Feist
The Compromise-The Format
Creep-Radiohead
Not Your Lover-Blitzen Trapper
That's All-Absent Elk
The Police and the Private-Metric


P.S. there's an acoustic music fest on Friday at my school and me and my friend Vivian are preforming one of my favorite sonfs of all time: The Ocean by the Bravery. I'm SO psyched. I'll totally post about it on Friday night/ Saturday afternoon-- maybe not i have graduation parties up the ***.


Congrats all,
Valerie.

41.

To me, today, it's officially summer. i finished my hardest final today, my ap calc bc final, and it was a slap to the face, but i'd prefer not to talk about it.
So I said i'd discuss books i read over the summer and the first i've finished is perks of being a wallflower. I finished it on sunday at work, and later that night i felt infinite. You're probably thinking : "Wow, Valerie, you probably were looking for that feeling after you read about it"
The truth is, when i was driving fast with my best friend Nicola in the summer night air, hollering in blind excitement and listening to the radio, i felt like i could live like that forever. I felt the way teenagers should feel: free and ready for anything, which i've never felt. Always cautious and good, i never was ready for what the future held, but now i think i am.
I'm not saying I'm not looking forward to college, because that would be a lie. I'm just scared for what fate has in store, which is completely separate from hard work and dedication. Fate can suck, i just hope that's not the card i draw.

So, i could probably write a whole ton more for perks, but frankly right now i don't feel like it. Maybe later i will.

xoxo, Valerie.

40.

For the 40th post, let's play a little game shall we?

it's friday night at 12 am, so should i say sunday morning?

regardless what's wrong with this picture (not actually a picture) a more situation deal

all saturday sitting at a picnic bench outside a park, in thunderstorms collecting money. coming home to pissed rents and going out to dinner with them and my grandparents to a restaurant i don't care for. texting a guy i have restricted to the friend zone more than my boyfriend of one and a half years and two (three?) days, the same guy who i hung out with alone the night before cuddling on his couch and watching 300. Where's the bf, you ask. he ditched me twice in a row for his father and his friends, without inviting me. i spent both days watching reruns of gossip girl.

please let me be reborn into manhattan's elite, i do have pretty good karma.

oh, and the answer to the game: everything.

39.

forget shards of glass, i'm going back to this one, it's just renewed for summer. so don't pay attention to the other one. i thought it was a good idea but i don't need 4875934573945 blogs. copy and pasted from the other blog:

FRIDAY, MAY 7, 2010
this has been boring
probably beacause it isn't summer yet.

i hope my parents sign me up for that creative writing class.

i hope i get the solo in concert choir.

i hope prom is flawless

i hope i get 5's on my APs

i hope i get 800s on my SAT IIs

i hope this is all over soon, so the fun can begin.




hoping....




WEDNESDAY, MAY 5, 2010
so the list continues.
Yes, i have made a list of things i want to accomplish this summer besides opening my literary mind to the great horizon. so here's the general list
1. work my ass off (get $)
2. read my reading list
3. finish nero & nadia
4. make a valerie original garment
5. creative writing course
6. field hockey.
7. oh and all my college app stuff.



wish me luck in about a month. when it will actually be summer, soonish.




TUESDAY, MAY 4, 2010
eet. by regina spektor = <3


the end.


SUNDAY, MAY 2, 2010
wow.
It seems as though all of my blogs up until now have been utter failures, but you can't expect an impulsive and inconsistent teen to be constantly blogging, besides the blog was stained with a fallen friendship. But I'm starting anew on may 2nd, 2010, with the renewed friendship, although this won't be worth reading until APs and SATs and ACTs and Regents are over, studying, yeah i actually so that. Since i'm only working this summer to concrete my college dreams, i have a reading list that i'll be pounding through, and i'll be sharing with you. I expect to read in the mornings, and write in the afternoons, so i'll share my adventures with Nero and Nadia on my other blog, while here we'll explore better and more publicly accepted writers here. So, this is just the beginning, but i thought i'd start it now, because the shards of glass stuck in my finger hurts like a bitch, and the fact that i've spent the majority of my weekend marveling in Barnes and Noble, or as i lovingly call it B&N.

So to my imaginary fan base, somewhere out there if you stumble upon this, i hope you're in for the ride of this summer as much as i am, well. An APUSH essays waiting for me.

Lots of love,
valerie.

38.

All the animals just looking for action

New story on my other blog. gonna post soon. check it out.

thirty seven.

watching law and order svu like its the best thing since sliced bread. it's raining. again. life in the norm, what can i say. My face is greasy all the time now.

Gonna go wash it, Valerie.